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It's a sunny day.

Get over it.

If you don't like it, change it.

Overdue

I'd like to only write here with good news.  That's been the plan, anyway.

It's a bit hard at the moment.

Should I talk about waking up with crusty eyes thanks to my contacts being 10 days past the change date?

Or the living room filled with soccer stuff because I'm still waiting to be able to get my wagon fixed?

No, the redemption I need is in the stay-in-summer I'm having.  I'm not going out, not going anywhere.  No outdoor festivals, no yoga, no running, no... escape... there must be something I'm missing, some way of... restoring.

It's not all bad, I guess.  I finally went on a date last week, cheap movie night with a Filipino girl.  She's a nurse, so she works odd hours and even corresponding has been difficult, much less finding something to do.  Which is all fine, I guess.  I'm not much in the mood for being social most days.

Work has ground to a halt.  My phone apps are getting nowhere.  No one wants the PC apps anymore.  That 9 to 5 offer is looking pretty good, and I'm going have to decide on it soon.

This isn't helping.  Dwelling isn't helping.  Writing it out isn't helping.

I need a change.

Junction

The manager that brought me in four years ago to my recent ended engagement has done it again.  He's invited me to join him in another city, nearer the mountains and farther from where I've been most of my life.  It's a good offer, and comes at a good time, but I'm unsure as always.

Can I uproot and start again elsewhere?

The Breaks

This is an odd summer.

I'm playing on only one soccer team, and this week I just turned over the only team I was coaching to a gentleman that was my opponent last season.

It's for the best though.

I have to focus on work, focus on rebuilding. I have put off planned new products for too long, spent too much money, and now it's time to get it together.

It will keep me busy and that's fine.

Shopkeeper

Today the very happy, smiley Korean shopkeeper I like here threw me a small package of chocolate macadamia nuts on my way out the door.

Mmmm... Candy from pretty strangers...

Turtles

Yesterday turned out to be a better day than predicted. We went to the "hippie" town where the boys bought souvenirs of a legal yet questionable nature. We also hung out on the beach watching the surfers for a bit...

A French speaking couple (he was Caucasian, she was perhaps Chinese or Japanese) came by and I offered to take their picture together... Afterward, the woman told me, as an afterthought and a bit of a reward, that down at the end of the beach were some turtles, so we headed off that way...

I looked and looked, but all I saw were some rocks that looked vaguely like a turtle. I turned around and steeled my nerve to make an inquiry to the sole other beach occupant, a nubile young lass sitting with her one year old baby...



Some things are easy to see...

"Excuse me, but have you happened to have seen any turtles arrived here?"

She pointed to a spot three feet in front of her, and directly in my path. There was a turtle.

"Some of them look like rocks," she said.



...only once you know they are there.

"I can't believe I didn't see it!"

And though I knew and reminded myself that my focus on how to approach and ask her a question was the cause for the oversight, I was still stunned and embarrassed...


That evening we had supper with friends and went to see a dumbass movie, after which we left my eldest behind at a yogurt shop to try his luck meeting girls.

Finally, we were on vacation.

Intentional infidelity

One should not rest one's full emotional weight on any one person. This tends to bend the relationship, if not break it entirely.